Me am the Cookie Monster?

Yep, I know, you don´t have to tell me -- I am indeed both eating the cake and having it. Not particularly nice nor fair nor good. And I will end it, sooner or later. It´s just so difficult. I really really like Mr Cosby -- we have so much fun together, I am laughing all the time, I love his music knowledge and that he is so social and relaxed. He is also extremely helpful with everything and generally just a super-guy. And yes, the acrobatic bed-activities are tremendous too.

But something is just not right. And I cannot put my finger on it. Probably I am just not in love in the right way. And it feels a bit unfair. ´cause I would just love everything to feel perfect. And the question is; will these feelings change? Could I just not suddently one day wake up and realize: of course I am in love with him!! ??

And I assure you, I wont play double games or treat him bad. Promise. I´m not a real cookie monster. Just a very pale copy.