Ups and Downs

What´s wrong with me? Where did these thoughts come from. My lovely friend La Bella Donna Designer tells me to not worry "I have been together with my guy for 8 years, I am still wondering and pondering and finding faults and doubting, but deep down I know that I am certain!". Which was kind of calming, but then again - I had very similar thoughts with my ex-husband, and we all know where that went...

Situation is that Mr Cosby and I have had a few rather dull discussions this week which has made me wondering if we are really right for eachother. My mind is trying to clear out if these discussions are only temporary irritations due to stress and busy schedules, or symptoms on some larger fundamental schism between us?

Mr Cosby gets extremely irritated and thinks I am too analytical and trying to find too much answers to things. He thinks it´s all very straightforward: "we were stressed and had different views on a couple of things, as couples do, but now: move on!!".

My problem is that I immediately start feeling choked and don´t feel like seeing him or spending time with him. I just want to be with myself and my friends all of a sudden. Doesn´t feel like this is the right feeling after just ... 2 months?