The Never Ending Story?
"This little roo misses you and is sorry that he has not been around. xx".
It all started on Friday when our dear Mr Kangaroo, out of the radio-shadow, texted me to explain he was more or less turning French by all the time he is currently spending in the home country of the Rugby World Cup. Which was a way for him to explain and excuse why he hasn't been in touch very much (I had really managed to realize that he is nothing for me and I have been a complete fool) . This was then followed by exchanges of some heartful texts. And picture my surprise when I on Saturday get a phone call from him on a cracked line from a boat to Sardinia where he is going to be with his Aussie mate until they go back to France again. Nice and a bit strange to hear his voice again and we had a chat about all sorts of things. He was very regretful for not being in touch or around and said he has either been working 14 hours a day or been in France for the past 6 weeks. Said he would be back after next weekend and could we perhaps meet up then? I don't really remember what i said, probably I was just rather friendly. In shock probably. Then he sent this text.
And first I was in heaven floating around immediately started romantically plan for our future, but now, a couple of days later, the more cynical and realistic me has taken over. Really I am in two minds. My two voices are talking to me.
One says -- he only calls you because he feels lonely and needs to know that you, or someone, is there for him when he decides to land on Planet Earth again.
The other says -- he really cares about you, he is just a completely distracted and lousy communicator. In his mind, he sees you both together again when it all calms down.
Should I now:
1. Throw myself into his arms and just forget the past and just start off again, into eternity?
2. Play it down and let him come to me although be nice and sweet when we speak?
3. Bitch a bit and play really hard to get and let him suffer badly for being absent
4. Erase his number, don't answer his calls and refuse to ever see him again?
Parts of me just want to go with 1 or 2, just not be a difficult girl, realize and accept that timing is key to modern relationships and also think of the fact that I too have been rather absent and been seeing 7 (seven) different men since I met with him. Noone wants a bitch or someone who is always demanding or yelling.
Parts of me is afraid that he wont ever respect me again unless I go for 3 or 4. He needs to chase and fight for me more, or he will always treat me like a doormat, like a girl he can always be sure of and that will always wait for him, regardless how lousy he is. In truth, I don't find doormats particularly interesting, although they are convenient to have around. And who wants to be convenient?
Most likely, I will not do anything but just see where things go and try to not think too much about it. I will most likely lean towards 3, too proud and scared to dare doing 1 or 2, but will try and be nice and tender and sweet (although, knowing myself, there will be some honest comments from the sharp mouth of the Sinister Spinster)...
Thankfully, I am in peace and loving harmony in Sweden for a week with all sorts of fun things going, including friends setting me up with various men and trying to convince me to move home again. Not that I will, but good to have something else to think of.

2 comments:
ahaaa...
well. what to say? none knows apart from you how to deal with this one. perhaps best to do nothing at all, let him do the work?If he's keen he will. He's nice, but not in your league. yet.
xxx
puss, thx for comment. yes, nothing else really I can do but to wait for his actions. I hardly remember what he looks like...
xxx
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