January greens

Blues? What kind of word is this? What did this colour do wrong to get a whole range of moody and depressive connotations to him?

Anyway. Think I got a bit coloured this weekend. Probably a mix of flu sympoms lingering on and a little tiny bit of heart ache. Woke up this morning and had a teeny wheeny bit of self pity in my mind. I hate self pity by the way. And I really have NO reason to have any self pity whatsoever. And I mean this. I have a lovely and healthy family that love me, wonderful friends that I care about and who care for me, I am moving in to a dream flat in a dream area. Very little to complain about, eh? I actually also like my work, which is a bloody bonus! Still, this morning I felt that there is something missing in my life. Where is the big love? Where is the guy I am decorating this new flat with? Where is the skiing partner and the concert-buddie? Where is the wonderful lover that I wake up next to every morning and snuggle into his warm chest before getting into the cold reality? Ho hoo? Where are you hiding? Could we pls get an investigation on this case?

But then I talked on the phone with my lovely friend in Stockholm, had brunch with this fantastic gang that I am so lucky to have met, had a long walk with my dearest ms Kitty and then increased my phone bill with more life developing talks. And the blues disappeared very quickly. Turned into a more greener colour. Green as in clarity, content and harmony.